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What Words Alone Can't Say
by Nathan Wende
More often than not
Words can't describe
My feelings for you
Which live deep inside
Feelings that grow stronger
With every beat of my heart
I knew you were the one for me
Right from the very start
There isn't a moment
In the day I can find
Where you face and smile
Don't appear in my mind
I long to be with you
And hold you so tight
To protect you and love you
Everyday and each night
We share something so special
Each and every day
A feeling in our souls
Words alone can't say
Entries
Monday, February 26, 2007
I seem to have neglected this blog for the past one week. I reckon people have already stopped popping by to see how i'm doing. Something in me tells me that i should start blogging again altogether because this will be the place to know more about me once i'm in China which isn't too far away now that it's already Monday. My previous week has been fulfilling meeting up with different groups of friends whom i've not met for the past few months! TuesdayIt was the third day of the Lunar New Year and it was a little different this year for this was the first time i went to my friend's house to 'bai nian'. The day started off with a movie at The Cathay. 'Epic Movie' was the show we watched and it sucks totally. It was so stupid, man, i could have killed myself while watching it! Well, it was a no brainer show so there was no need to crack my brains over the plot. Dinner at Waraku Japanese Restaurant was a nice affair with sashimi salad for starters then chawanmushi and we both ended off with udon and ramen. Roger's now hooked on to that restaurant. I promise you, i'll bring you there again once i'm back yeah? I wanna have that sashimi salad again!. The day ended at Ber's house where we played cards and PSP. Tat somehow wrapped up the New Year. A nice way to end it, i would say.WednesdayMet up with Ben for KTV session. Man, was it fun! I've been going to K box so recently these days that i've completely lost count of the number of times i went there for the past month! Its been so long since we last met and i truly enjoyed myself. Besides, i got to hear him sing! Took a nice long stroll to esplanade from Heerens after KTV to catch the fireworks only to be disappointed for there wasn't any fireworks display on that day! However disappointed i am, i still enjoyed myself.ThursdayMet up with TCC friends Lee and Meng Hong for a couple of drinks which ended in me sprouting rubbish at the end of the session. Meeting up with them has always been fun for it brought back many nice memories when i was still working at TCC. They were my closest friends and i will always cherish their friendship and my memories with them. To Lee, thanks for always being the great friend that you are, listening to my woes and basking in my happiness. I'll always remember you for sure and i hope you do too.FridayMy day started early on Friday. Met Amanda at a god forbidden timing of 9am at our primary school only to find it relocated to Bedok. Having missed our primary school's food so much, we decided to make our way down to bedok for our breakfast cum lunch. It was a mistake right from the start for the food sucks and the stores were no longer the same. The new school's canteen was way smaller than that of the old school's. We enjoyed ourselves nonetheless. Spent an hour or so at IJ before heading down to Tampines for our KBOX session. As luck would have it, we were not able to find any Kbox outlet at Tampines so Amanda had to call her friend to confirm the location. Luck wasn't on our side when her friend told us that Kbox has already closed down the outlet at Tampines. Are we just 'suay' or what? Thus, we decided to head down to parkway for our KTV session. Yes, we were very much desperate to sing for we haven't sang together in ages and the fact that i'll be going to China soon made us even more desperate. We had fun though. Love you Amanda, i'm so gonna miss you.Went over to Qiaolin's house after that for her birthday party. Sorry i was late honey. The ride from Parkway to Toa Payoh was really long. I fell asleep on the way! But then again, what's new? I hope you enjoyed our present to you and that you had fun on that day! Love you babe.
Saturday and SundaySweet Roger spent two whole days with me and i daresay those two days were the best days of the week! Nope, i'm not being biased here guys. Its just that we really had fun, shopping for clothes, watching movies and pigging out! Spent three hours at the KTV lounge near his house on Saturday. Am i crazy or what? Singing three days in a week? Ha ha I figured i should sing as much as i can before leaving for China. God knows what i'll get at the KTV lounges over there! Sunday was pig(s) out day for us for we had Jap food again. This time, at Pasir Ris. A little too far for us but it was worth it. Lunch buffet was great although the service sucked big time. However, we still got to eat whatever we wanted, sashimi, prawn tempura, chawanmushi, seafood soup and what have you! Dessert was ben and jerry's ice cream at white sands, courtesy of Kenny. Thank dude, the ice cream was real nice and thanks for the ultra big serving! That kept us full till 11pm. It was tour de island on that day for we went to Vivocity after lunch to catch two movies, back-to-back! Namely, 'Norbit' and 'Protege'. Are we movie junkies or what?! Three movies in a week! Now that's how i became broke! Ha ha. 'Norbit' was another no brainer show but it was far better than 'Epic Movie'. Although we were seated just one row from the screen, we enjoyed ourselves nevertheless. Rushed for our second movie as soon as 'Norbit' ended. 'Protege' was of a different genre altogether and did i mention that Daniel Wu's damn hot?! Ooh, i do love a guy with muscles. I totally enjoyed myself that day. Sorry guys, no photos for illustration for i've misplaced my camera. Three more days to China guys! I'll miss y'all!
Lovely Angel <
7:19 PM
Friday, February 16, 2007
I wish i had all the power in the world to stop time from moving.I wish i was devoid of emotions so that leaving wouldn't be that heartbreaking.I wish a plague would strike china so that there would be an excuse not to leave.I wish i had the strength to maintain something i've taken four months to build.I wish things would still remain as they are five months from now.Lastly, i wish that you would wait for me.A melancholic post on the 2nd day of the Lunar New Year. However, i don't really care now. The thought that i'll be leaving one and a half weeks from now is scaring me. I'm physically and emotionally tired from all the stress that's arising from the china trip. I just wish time would slow down a little, for me to slowly absorb the fact that i'm leaving, as well as for me to be able to treasure each and every moment spent with my loved ones. I'm being drowned by a whirlpool of emotions now. Mostly negative emotions. Oh i hate myself for feeling this way. I hate it when tears just flow uncontrollably at the thought of leaving you. I hate it when i'm enjoying myself because its all just a facade. Who really knows what's going on inside me? Only you, I guess but you sometimes fail to look a little harder. Perhaps you may just find a girl who's as vulnerable as anyone and as sensitive as anyone can be. Still i thank you for who you are and for who i am with you. Every new year is a routine for my family with the day starting at my grandma's place where the bulk of my ang baos come from. This year, however, is different and very much enjoyable from previous years for you are with me. Hopefully next year wouldn't be any less enjoyable. This post is to Roger, for always being there for me in good times and bad and for being ever so patient to my needs. Cheers.
Lovely Angel <
10:55 AM
AND I'M IN A BETTER MOODThe previous week has been one hell of a rollercoaster for me. Activities have been packed to the brim for me leaving me no room to breathe much less think about unneccessary stuff as stated in my previous entry. Reckon that i'll be very busy for the next one and a half weeks what with meeting up with friends and preparing for my china trip. Driving tests over and done with but before you guys think that i passed, you're wrong. I didn't make the mark unfortunately. Stupid mistake on my part. I should learn to be more careful on the roads, at least, ONLY during the test. Safe driver, i am not. I've learnt one thing from the test though - to always drive safely no matter what the circumstances are. Then again, are we really gonna be that safe after we've passed our driving test? We can never be too sure of that. I, for one, won't.Was recently hit with stomach flu which caused me to miss CHS's farewell party held at the Civil Service Club. It was just pure misfortune that i was absent from me for i heard that i missed out ALOT of fun. Valentine's day was great this year for sweet Roger surprised me with a nice stalk of pink rose which bernard supposedly 'made' nicer with his 'nimble' fingers. How true that is, i wouldn't know. Ha ha Ber, if it was so well done, why then did the flower wilt within a few hours at my place? Still, i wouldn't be so mean as to neglect your contributions. Thanks dude and also to roger, for making my V day such a memorable one. I love you.13 MORE DAYS TO CHINA!Nope, you guys didn't see wrong. I've got less than two weeks in Singapore before leaving for studies in China. Meet ups any time before china trip would be deeply appreciated. Do contact me if any of you wish to send me off on that day. Before i end, i would like to wish you guys a very happy chinese new year! May your year ahead be filled with joy and laughter!
Lovely Angel <
10:55 AM
Monday, February 12, 2007
Haven't been blogging for some time already. Today's entry, however, would be an outlet to vent my frustrations, my hurt as well as my disappointment. People say that the best way to forget all sorrows would be to exercise. I beg to differ. Writing, too, makes one forget their sorrows. Perhaps i wasn't able to draw a clear line between right and wrong, past and future as well as truth and lies which brought me to where i am now. How is it that i could never let go of the past and look into the future?Some food for thought, how important is one's past? I wonder. Or, try this, how important is one's past relationship or for that matter, one's past crush? Does it play an important role in shaping who you are now? Does it even matter if it happened 3 years ago or just a mere one and a half years ago? Would any of you still be affected if you see your ex-lover/crush and reminisce about the sweet/loving/hurting/disappointing times you guys once shared? I wouldn't even wanna think about the other possibilities one might do when they meet with such a circumstance. "oh forget it. It's all in the past" my brain would say but my heart, however, speaks a different tune. Sometimes i just wish i could get rid of this heart of mine, never have to bother with earthly emotions and yet still live my life happily. Thinking of the impossible i guess. Perhaps it would do me good to leave this earthly place for a while.. Adieu my friends, adieu. May we meet when i'm in a better mood.
Lovely Angel <
11:04 PM
Friday, February 02, 2007
I realised something today. Something that i've always knew but the event today cemented my emotions as well as my thoughts on this. Someone that i'll always be thankful for, not just in sec school but for the life ahead of me. Someone that i'll always cherish in good times and bad. Someone that i will never ever forget even if she goes to America for five months. That person, you know who you are. Yes, you. I will always cherish you and be there for you whenever you need me. Thank you for being by my side whether you like it or not. I will miss you and i know you will too. You are too important to me.28 more days to China!
Lovely Angel <
11:04 PM
