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What Words Alone Can't Say
by Nathan Wende
More often than not
Words can't describe
My feelings for you
Which live deep inside
Feelings that grow stronger
With every beat of my heart
I knew you were the one for me
Right from the very start
There isn't a moment
In the day I can find
Where you face and smile
Don't appear in my mind
I long to be with you
And hold you so tight
To protect you and love you
Everyday and each night
We share something so special
Each and every day
A feeling in our souls
Words alone can't say
Entries
Saturday, July 21, 2007
I seriously don't know what's wrong with me. I feel that i'm a changed person having spent 5 months in China. If you guys are referring to me spitting on the streets, showing classic chinese behaviour, then you are wrong. I have a different expectation of things altogether.
Things that used to bother me in the past have all started to haunt me again. Things that i used to cherish so much, the daily dinners, those relaxing moments, those heart to heart talks, all seem like a thing of the past. It is no longer a matter of neccessity but more of a matter of need. There are times when one's caught between neccessity and need. Neccessity is when you want or do something because you want to and not because someone forced you to it. Also, it's because it makes you feel happy. Need is more of a responsibility. Something you do just because you think the other party will be happy but in actual fact you're suffering inside. The daily messages and phone calls that i used to look forward are now replaced with fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear that inevitable will happen. Those daily conversations which seemed so relaxing are now so strained, so solemn and so heartbreaking. Don't go on anymore, i beg you. My heart can't take it. I see myself crying to sleep practically every night but there's no one i could turn to.
19th July, 2009 will be the day but will i be able to wait that long? Or will i give up even before the dateline is due? Those moments, seemed so far away when in actual fact it just happened a few months ago! I hate to be the last to know. I hate to be kept in the dark but i'm constantly treated this way. This feeling sucks. Fuck this feeling.
And tears just keep rolling down.
Lovely Angel <
8:27 AM
