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What Words Alone Can't Say
by Nathan Wende
More often than not
Words can't describe
My feelings for you
Which live deep inside
Feelings that grow stronger
With every beat of my heart
I knew you were the one for me
Right from the very start
There isn't a moment
In the day I can find
Where you face and smile
Don't appear in my mind
I long to be with you
And hold you so tight
To protect you and love you
Everyday and each night
We share something so special
Each and every day
A feeling in our souls
Words alone can't say
Entries
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Met up with my dears today for a short dinner and some walking around bugis junction. Though its been just 4 days since i last saw them, i missed them like crazy. It's funny. I dont see myself missing someone so much! Oops! I guess i'm still not used to life without them after having spent 4.5 months living together in China. They were my support, my strength throughout those periods and continue to be even when we're back in Singapore. Thanks for listening to my problem yt and ql. It may come on a little harsh your advice but i do appreciate it and i know you two meant the best for me.
Been thinking about what you said the whole day. It may not make perfect sense to me but i will still try to fulfil what is needed of me. I am not her and you need not treat me like you do her. It's completely unfair to me if i've already been judged before defending myself. It's not fair that i have to step in her shoes when i thought it was all a new beginning for me. It just isn't right that i be treated this way. However, i shall give you the benefit of the doubt. Maybe, just maybe, whatever happened was worse than i thought it is. Then again, i just hope to be treated fairly. Treated like a brand new person. Not a shadow to anyone else and of course, not a replica of her. I know i'm not good with words and i don't express myself the way i want myself to which may cause many misunderstandings but i'm hoping that i'm heard and i'm understood. Most importantly, i just wish that things never have to end. Then again, it's really hard to say wouldn't it? What with you being in a dilemma and unsure of your path.
Again, yet another beautiful friendship has ended. Not in the way i would expect it to be. I should have expected it the moment i posted that entry. I should have expected that things would turn ugly. I was prepared for everything because, a blog, is afterall an outlet for you to vent all your unhappiness when you don't feel like confronting the other party. You just hope that the other party will read your blog and understand what you've been going through, what you're unhappy with. I was prepared but i did feel a tinge of sadness upon realization that this friendship that i used to have was fake right from the very start. Perhaps i really should stop trusting people. Perhaps i should be selfish for once. Perhaps i should just live for myself and not anyone else. Hopefully i will be less hurt this way.
I've been so busy these days that i've hardly had the time to laze at home the whole day. There are so many people i want to talk to. So many people i wanna thank for showing me concern these past week but i've failed to do either. Thank you everyone, for always being there. Especially huijun who has always been silently going through all these with me. Thank you so much. I do appreciate everything that you've done.
Lastly, Amanda, i hope everything's been fine for you. Do contact me again so we can go out together.
As always, i wish i was devoid of all emotions. I wouldn't be crying every night then. I wouldn't be hoping for something so badly only to realize that it may not even happen. I wouldn't be so silly...
Lovely Angel <
4:18 PM
