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Monday, June 30, 2008
I must have thought a million things before typing this post. I must have typed a million words before deleting everything and starting on it over again. Nothing seems right to me. Everything seems wrong.
Finally i'm into my second week of attachment. I hope time would fly by once again for me. School life's far too stressful for me. I sometimes wonder why i couldn't be like my counterparts who appear so relaxed, like they haven't a care in the world.
Then again, i'm left with just 4 more lesson plans before i can finally enjoy my weekends in peace. It's just 4 anyway, should be able to get it done tonight.
My mind's a blank. I've been having sleepless nights worrying about the first day i start teaching. I've been thinking of all the possible things that could bring me down on my very first day. Every night i rehearse in my mind all those things i'm gonna say infront of my students on my very first day and i end up forgetting them the next morning when i wake up and the cycle repeats itself again. Hopefully the last two weeks of attachment goes by in a flash.
We seem to have a million and one things to say in the past. Now, work has over taken our desire to make conversation. Fatigue somehow, has found its place between us. Has life become so mundane that we no longer have a common topic anymore? Or is it just me? Being out of place with the rest of you? Or have we found something or someone more important than the rest of us? It just seems weird..This attachment, its a curse..
Lovely Angel <
5:55 PM
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
I was really tired by 3pm but they brightened up my spirits yet again...
Lovely Angel <
7:56 PM
Monday, June 23, 2008
And there you have it. My very first day at Bedok green Primary School and i was greeted by hordes of enthusiastic and highly spirited primary ones and twos.
I had an indescribable sense of high when i heard those high and chirpy voices greeting me "余老师" They were just so cute and you couldn't help but smile. When my co-operating teacher introduced me to the little ones, i was debating if i should smile or appear so stern that they know they will never have a hold over me but when i heard how they addressed me, i was like, fuck it. Let me just make this mistake and i smile my brightest smile.
I love kids.
I love kids.
And yup, you guys know it. I LOVE KIDS! Looking forward to seeing them again tomorrow!
Lovely Angel <
7:26 PM
Sunday, June 22, 2008
COUNTING DOWN ONE MORE DAY
I'm excited. I'm anticipating the challenges ahead of me. I can't wait for school to reopen tomorrow. Primary 2s and 5s, here i come.
余老师来了！
Lovely Angel <
7:56 AM
Thursday, June 19, 2008
This post officially marks my 201th post for this blog. I can't believe that i've been using this address for the past 2 years to vent out my frustrations as well as to share my happiness with you readers.
Headed to Bedok Green Primary yesterday and i was won over by the friendliness of the staff. Hypocrisy or not, i couldn't care less. The atmosphere just provided me another reason not to dread school re-opening that much. Another plus point would be the fact that i've made some new friends already. Acquaintances i would say but i'm sure our friendship will bloom over the next few weeks.
Arrived really early at 815am yesterday for my first staff meeting at the school and i was really surprised to know that the staff there are really quite relaxed and friendly, especially the senior teacher that was in charge of us. They don't really place much emphasis on dress codes so i assume that its alright to wear jeans to school once in a while.
Attended the staff meeting at 11am after a mini tour of the school and a short briefing by the senior teacher. It was only after this meeting that i look at teachers in a brand new light. Primary school teachers that is. In case any of you are wondering, teachers are still humans. We are as horny and as dirty minded as anyone of you. So please do not regard us as saints. Smile at us and you'll see the once icy mountain melting away...
I'm glad that school hours are pretty flexible in the sense that we're able to choose the levels that we wish to teach. Stupid me, i chose the lower primary without first considering the timings of lower primary classes - afternoon session. Therefore, there is a high possibility that i might be posted to the afternoon session. Its not that a bad thing though, school still ends at 6pm and i get to sleep till 10am. May even jog in the morning once in a while before i head to school.
One tip the senior teacher gave us was that we should try our best not to smile too often. I agreed with her but more often than not, we fall prey to those silly innocent looking faces and smile unconsciously. I do hope i'll be able to maintain my cool next week. As i'm typing this, my anxiety level has reached its maximum. I'm finally looking forward to school. I can't wait to know who my pupils will be.
Played mahjong again at darling's house and i was glad that i wasn't the biggest loser! I remembered playing once at his place and i lost $10 but last night i only lost $3! Kenny was the biggest winner, taking home a whopping $16!!!
Will be meeting the girls tomorrow, our last meeting before school starts. Will we have the time to meet up more often then? However, we've got one really great piece of news don't we?! And we've got huijun to thank for! Thanks for informing us babe!! I was practically shaking when i received your message!
Glad that ZY is doing well in the army though he has been kicked out of training.
Last but not least, chin if you're reading this, thanks for always being there for me. I appreciate it and i love you so much.
Lovely Angel <
11:47 AM
Monday, June 16, 2008
Counting down 7 days
Lovely Angel <
1:30 PM
Saturday, June 14, 2008
We finally had our inaugural stay over session at Qiaolin's house not before singing ourselves hoarse at partyworld KTV @ Bishan and gorging ourselves with food at Crystal Jade Kitchen. Maybe we had dinner too early and we found ourselves hungry at a god-forbidden time of 1am, a time when i'm usually asleep. Macs was the only option so we ordered a meal each and gorged ourselves again.
It was a night well spent for dear yt managed to learn the basics of mahjong! I'm sure we'll be playing very soon again and i'm looking forward to it.
With just one more week left to the end of my holidays, i've spent my past one week rather fruitfully. Accompanied darling to the PC show yesterday and he got himself a new Fujitsu Laptop! Happy happy :)
A letter to my dears - YT and QL
Thanks for always being there for me.
You may have listened to my complaints a million and one times but never once have you told
me off, never once have you chided me.
You just sat there, looking at me with concerned eyes and giving me the same advice over and over again. Not once complaining and always so patient with me.
Thanks for being my closest friends. I will always cherish and love you guys.
Lovely Angel <
6:55 AM
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
In just 12 days, i'll be walking through the gates of Bedok Green Primary School.
In just 12 days, my holidays of 6months will be forever etched in my memories unless i have another 6 months for me to slack around which is highly impossible.
In just 12 days, i'll have lesser time for you, you and you. Meet ups will be totally impossible. Clubbing will be even more impossible except on Friday nights. Sending you towork will be out of the question. Late nights will be a no-no for me.
My life may just be ending in 12 days. I've been desperately trying to squeeze as much time as i can for meet ups.
Then again, i'm quite excited about the coming challenges or obstacles instored for me. Come June 23rd, a whole new chapter begins. Not only will i be faced with the challenges of the working world, my patience will also be tested. I do hope i survive this small test for me.
Come next year, another new chapter begins. I'm looking forward to it though. It may be busy, i may have to scrimp and save but it doesn't matter for I've got plans.
Like what i told yt in January, time crawls when you're having your holidays. However, now that school's nearing, you wish that holidays would be longer. You wish that you've done more.
In the mood for reminscing these days. Had an awfully close encounter with you last saturday. I can't help but be shocked. I can't help but think back on all the happy times as well as the sad times. However happy i was, i'm sad to say that you are a thing of the past. YOU give me the strength to move on. When i lied on your shoulders last night, i knew you would be there to protect me from whatever harm i may come to. When i hugged you last night, i knew that i'm safe and i would be loved by you no matter what.
I'm just being emotional...
My Virgin shot with dearest chin after she came back from the states
Lovely Angel <
8:00 PM
Monday, June 02, 2008
I had an awfully traumatizing experience yesterday which resulted in me commenting this to all my girl pals, " I now realize the importance of a brazilian wax".
Planned to meet the girls at 1pm at Ngee Ann poly to return our graduation robes so being the lazy me, i decided to take the long MRT ride to Clementi instead of taking the bus. Awful choice i would say. When the train was approaching Clementi Mrt Station, i suddenly heard mother nature calling. Was deciding whether to answer it at Clementi station or wait till arriving at Ngee Ann. As i didn't wanna wait another 15 minutes to relieve myself, i decided to answer nature's call by going to the toilet of Clementi Mrt. Once again, another wrong choice.
Seeing that all the cubicles were taken, i waited patiently for any one to open up. One did open up finally and all i saw was this 50 year old aunty with unzipped pants, standing right in front of me. I swear i could see a few strands of pubic hair then. She spoke to me in chinese, " 小妹，你可以进来帮我脱裤子吗？我的脚痛得很厉害，不能弯下来。” I was in shock. I didn't know how to react to her pleas and she continued, “我很急，近来帮我！” With that she pulled me into the cubicle and locked me in. And that just abandoned all hopes of me ever winning in 4D or Toto.
Once in the toilet, she asked me to take off her pants for her. At first, i thought my job was only to pull her pants low enough for her to sit on the toilet bowl. Little did i know that she expected me to remove her pants so that she could pee, man's style. I squatted down and removed her pants from her legs halfway praying that i wouldn't be too slow before her bladder bursts. All these while, i was keeping my eyes to the ground and never once did i lift my eyes to see that great piece of art.
Having done her business and instead of asking me to put her pants back on, she kept ranting about how she fell and what could have caused her fall. I was really trying very hard to be sympathetic but all the while i was just thinking of the huge piece of mess and wondering when she would be humble enough to cover it up. FINALLY, she asked me to put it back on for her so i squatted down again not before hoping that she cleansed her private part properly lest any of her waste drips onto me.
Even after putting of her pants, she still didn't want to zip up and went on to repeat her story a second time. This time, i was thinking of a different thing. I was really urgent by then and i was thinking of telling the aunty this, "其实我现在也很急，你可以先出去吗？不让我可能需要你帮我把裤子脱掉！” She left after 3 minutes and thank god for that.
Ah well, enough of female pubic hair and private parts. Let's move on to something less uptight and more cheerful. I finally met up with chin swee after one year! We had dinner at Food republic then headed down to Dim Sake Bar at goodwook park hotel for some sake and then to acid bar for some really good mojitos. All in all, it was a great night and i'm glad to have you back babe.
And i'm still very much traumatized
Lovely Angel <
8:15 PM
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Been really slack these days so i've done a bit of planning for the future. I kinda know where i want to be in the future, i know where i will be headed and i really cant wait to take the first step out of my shell. It will be hard but i will perservere for you. Come next year, i will be faced with a new set of challenges. Details will be up soon if everything goes as planned.
And this paragraph is for you my darling, who has shown me so much care and concern over the past one and a half years. Thanks darling for being ever so sweet. I didn't know love till i met you. I love you so much and i always will.
Feeling blissful...
Lovely Angel <
8:15 PM
